Time after time I really look back and wish I had never left California that January back in 2010. I could have stayed there with my sister as long as I wanted but instead I came back to New York to go to school. All the time that just passed by while we were in two completely different states could have been spent together. I wish I could have Predicted that my sister would end up having an untimely departure from earth. I wish there was something I could have done to help or prevent this from happening to my sister even though I know I don't have that type of power to stop it. I miss my sister and I just wish she would come back. Sometimes I just deal with the pain by ignoring reality and just pretending she's still just in another state but then when I pick up the phone to call her, I know she wont be on the other end and then reality sets in. Of course as sisters we had our ups and downs but she was a very good person  and a very good mother to her son and didn't deserve to go out the way she did. It was too early too soon and it was just not supposed to happen!